I’ve been working a lot lately on bettering myself. I worked hard to create a new life for myself and I’m honestly quite proud. I have a wonderful job with people who are great to work for, in a company that does so much more than it has to for its employees. I have an amazing boyfriend who has been so good to me and the kids. I have wonderful friends who love me for who I am, so I don’t have to pretend to be what I’m not.
All I need now is to let go of the negativity in my life.
I’ve held on to a lot of grudges of the past that I’m tired of carrying with me. People that have hurt me or those I love. People that I’ve quietly held a steady level of hatred for in my heart. I’m tired of carrying that negativity.
One thing I have learned these past few years is people change. You cannot go through life without change. And whether the change is good or bad depends on the individual. Last year I would never have thought that I would be spending a Saturday night roaming Spirit Halloween with my boyfriend, my kids, and my ex husband. I never would have even considered being friends with the one person who hurt me the most in my life, but that is where we seem to be headed. It's still too early to tell if this new page will last, but for now we have found what works for us.
We have come a long way in our relationship and now we are capable of being friends. We have both changed. And while we will never be what we were to each other, I’m thankful we have let go of the past for the sake of the kids.
Since realizing how much stress I have let go of from forgiving him enough that we can comfortably be around each other, I’ve wanted to start letting go of other grudges. So I am.
I’m letting it all go.
I’m done with the hatred, I’m done with the hurt. It’s time to heal and start living the best life I can!